[Book Excerpt] The World is Made for Good People: Afanti’s Life and Childhood (2)

(Con­tin­ued from the pre­vi­ous chap­ter)
Part 2: The Mys­te­ri­ous Libra

Now let us quick­ly talk about the sto­ry of Nass­er al-Din Avan­ti’s child­hood.

He was a gift­ed busi­ness­man, already craft­ing var­i­ous pot­tery pieces at just eight years old. On hot days, Sher­mah­mat would trust him with all the work, then retire to the tea­house to relax. Busi­ness was quick in the hands of young Nas­er al-Din, and the old man nev­er wor­ried about any­thing he entrust­ed to him.

Once, when the young Nass­er al-Din was sit­ting alone in his shop, a mer­chant came and picked out a small earth­en­ware jar to store hon­ey. He looked at the jars that could hold two chil­dren and said with a charm­ing smile:

“The clay pots are all big and round, but the ser­vants are tiny.”
The young Nass­er al-Din imme­di­ate­ly respond­ed with two lines of anti­thet­i­cal poet­ry, say­ing:
“The client is a big shot, but the thing he bought is as small as a mouse.”
As a result, the cus­tomer was speech­less.
The mer­chant, who loved to read and recite poet­ry when­ev­er he had free time and was very well versed in poet­ry, was both amazed and extreme­ly fond of this clever child. He stopped bar­gain­ing with the child and imme­di­ate­ly bought five more earth­en­ware jars for a lot of mon­ey.

When see­ing off the guests, the young Nass­er al-Din gave them anoth­er poem:
“A clay pot is worth less than sil­ver, but filled with hon­ey, it is sweet and refresh­ing.”
The mer­chant was delight­ed to hear this and was over­joyed. He took the trou­ble to write down these anti­thet­i­cal vers­es on paper, and they have been passed down to our time.

He was tru­ly a war­rior of the sea of com­merce. The clam­orous, bustling, and crowd­ed mar­ket­place nev­er tired him. Amidst the nev­er-end­ing swirl of human activ­i­ty from morn­ing to night, he always kept his head down and strode briskly. It was in this ocean of com­merce that some­thing occurred that forged his intel­lect and soul.

One after­noon, he arrived at the old camel mar­ket. It was clos­ing time, and mer­chants and cus­tomers had all gone to rest to escape the scorch­ing heat. Near­by, dozens of camels lay in the blaz­ing sun, drenched in sweat. Young Nass­er al-Din, unfazed by the camels, weaved among them. His sil­hou­ette was obscured by the herd, but his gold vel­vet flow­ered hat embroi­dered with red tas­sels occa­sion­al­ly peeked out from between the humps. Noth­ing in this half-asleep are­na held his inter­est. He tried to pro­voke a camel calf, but it, drowsy from the heat, sim­ply glanced at him with­out anger or spit­ting, then turned its head away.

Young Nas­er al-Din thought for a moment and head­ed toward the Temu­ran Bridge, locat­ed at the gate known as the Khe­gan­di Gate. As he passed a large trad­ing inn, he heard shouts and laugh­ter com­ing from the inter­sec­tion, so he stopped. Feel­ing elat­ed, he nat­u­ral­ly head­ed in that direc­tion.

He saw a group of street chil­dren his own age engag­ing in an amus­ing game. On the road beside the trad­ing inn, under the scorch­ing sun, sat an old beg­gar woman from the most detestable of all gyp­sies. The chil­dren laughed and shout­ed, call­ing her all sorts of unpleas­ant names and throw­ing clods of earth at her, delib­er­ate­ly pro­vok­ing her.

The old woman was excep­tion­al­ly ugly, even dis­gust­ing: her bare head was cov­ered in sil­ver hair, a few yel­low fangs peeked out from her pur­ple lips, her nose was hooked blue, her eye­lids were swollen and red, her eye­lash­es had all fall­en out, and her wide-open eyes shone with a poi­so­nous light. Fur­ther­more, in her arms, the old woman was hold­ing a black cat, so old that its fur had fall­en off, and it was just as dis­gust­ing as she was. In short, her appear­ance was exact­ly like a witch who kid­napped chil­dren and drank their blood.

Young Nasered­din imme­di­ate­ly joined in the fun: he too shout­ed, hollered, and yelled at her, his tongue hang­ing out, and joined the oth­ers in jump­ing around her on one foot, bark­ing like a dog. The old woman raised her bony fists to threat­en and curse them, and the cat, too, hunched over and purred angri­ly. It was all so ridicu­lous that the chil­dren would occa­sion­al­ly burst into laugh­ter.

Final­ly, the old woman bored them, and oth­er games await­ed them on the Temuri­an Bridge. They chased each oth­er to the bridge, hop­ing to reach it before a tightrope-walk­ing per­for­mance began. The chil­dren quick­ly for­got about the old woman and her cat when sud­den­ly a deaf­en­ing cho­rus of nagla drums, oth­er large and small drums, suonas, and trum­pets erupt­ed. As they watched the tightrope walk­ers soar through the air, their mem­o­ries van­ished. A vague image of the old woman sud­den­ly sur­faced in lit­tle Naserdin’s mind, a pang of pain in his heart, as if to leave a mark, but the sen­sa­tion van­ished in an instant.

He played all day, then returned home by anoth­er road and did not see the old woman again. He was telling Sher­ma­mati how he had spent the day when he remem­bered the old woman and sud­den­ly shut up.

“What’s wrong with you?” Sher­ma­ma asked.
“Today I saw an old beg­gar woman from the Gyp­sies,” lit­tle Nasered­din answered. “She had a black cat in her arms.… Then we all went to the Temuri­an Bridge.”
What he said was nei­ther true nor false; it was only half the truth—which was worse than a lie. So at this moment his heart was stabbed again.
Then he went to bed. Tired from run­ning all day, young Naserdin slept sound­ly. But one night he was awak­ened by a night­mare: the old woman on the road leaped angri­ly at him, grabbed him, and pushed him into a deep pit. Inside the pit lay a large black cat, roar­ing, its eyes gleam­ing with feroc­i­ty, hunched over him. This dream deeply dis­tressed young Naserdin. Lis­ten­ing to Sher­mameti’s heavy breath­ing and snor­ing, he felt a grow­ing pain with­in him. He imag­ined the old wom­an’s cat leap­ing onto his chest, tear­ing at his heart with its claws.

Thus he felt his first pangs of con­science, and felt that there was an invis­i­ble, mys­te­ri­ous scale with­in him which weighed every par­ti­cle of his bad behav­ior with­out mer­cy, and he also expe­ri­enced how cru­el the pres­sure of this scale was.

In order to get rid of the reproach of con­science, he tried to divert his thoughts to play, hedge­hogs and swal­lows, but it was no use! Although he did­n’t want to think about the old woman any­more, his mind was always full of the image of the old woman.

At this time, a strange thing hap­pened: the more he thought about the old woman, the more he felt reproached in his heart, as if he had turned into the old woman — by dawn, three-quar­ters of him had turned into the old woman, and the remain­ing quar­ter had become com­plete­ly oppo­site to him­self, as lone­ly and unfor­tu­nate as the old woman. Lat­er, the remain­ing quar­ter became even ugli­er than the old woman, so that he burst into tears, his face full of tears.

He under­stood everything—the old woman was utter­ly alone, mis­er­able, with­out a sin­gle rel­a­tive in the world. Was she despised sim­ply because she was born into a gyp­sy tribe? Was she inher­ent­ly ugly? Oth­er­wise, why was she sub­ject­ed to this pun­ish­ment for her entire life? These streets, teem­ing with thou­sands of peo­ple, were a desert to her… no, worse than a desert, for they were hate­ful and hos­tile to her. Why did she always stare around with her eyes bulging, her back hunched? Because she was con­stant­ly being whipped and mocked—everything was a cru­el blow to her. She had noth­ing but the black cat; she and the kit­ten lived togeth­er, both old and frail, often starv­ing, des­ti­tute, yet they shared a deep bond.

When he under­stood all this, how would he view him­self now? How would he view his own immoral shout­ing, teas­ing, and mock­ing of the old woman? He was ter­ri­fied. He felt heavy, and the more he thought about it, the angri­er he became at him­self. He even broke down sob­bing over what he had done and buried his head in his pil­low.

The next morn­ing he was in a state of dis­plea­sure, lost in thought. He ate some naan and drank some milk, then went out into the street. He placed a purse in his belt con­tain­ing a few cop­per coins, one and a half cents, worth two and a half sil­ver dol­lars. Oth­ers might have thought it was just a small sum he had saved, but it was not. It was this small sum that lat­er brought him good luck in the game.

He hur­ried toward the old woman, encoun­ter­ing many tempt­ing things along the way: yogurt, iced drinks, toys, sweets… But he con­trolled him­self, not unbuck­ling his belt along the way. Instead, he left his mon­ey behind and brave­ly walked on. At the entrance to a dead end, chil­dren were enthu­si­as­ti­cal­ly play­ing the Chi­nese game of shut­tle­cock kick­ing, but he did­n’t stop. Lit­tle Nasserdin was an excel­lent shut­tle­cock kick­er; no one could match him. Despite this, he turned his head and hur­ried on.

He found the old woman in the same place, in front of the Trad­ing Inn. The cat lay on her knees, and the clay bowl she had been beg­ging for mon­ey was as emp­ty as it had been the day before. Peo­ple passed by her one after anoth­er, but the old wom­an’s bowl remained emp­ty. The old woman stroked the cat, mum­bling some­thing to her­self; the cat respond­ed with a faint meow, say­ing, “Yes, it’s hun­gry.”

Young Nass­er al-Din hid behind a half-col­lapsed wall. He sud­den­ly felt a lit­tle scared. How should he approach the old woman? What should he say to her? He thought of throw­ing the purse in her face and run­ning away. But that would be out of place at such a solemn moment.

All kinds of peo­ple passed by the old woman, but no one put a pen­ny or a piece of green-haired naan in her bowl. The young Nass­er al-Din looked at this scene and mar­veled in his heart: How can these peo­ple be so hard-heart­ed!

His sur­prise slow­ly turned to anger. Peo­ple passed by one after anoth­er, and the old wom­an’s bowl remained emp­ty. Young Nasered­din’s blood boiled, his cheeks flushed. Why could­n’t these adults under­stand some­thing a child could? Today, he did­n’t see the old wom­an’s blue nose, her bared yel­low teeth, or her triv­ial ail­ments. Instead, he saw her lone­li­ness and help­less­ness.

Because he was very angry and sad, he final­ly over­came his timid­i­ty, so he took out his purse and walked up to the old woman.
The clos­er he got to the old woman, the heav­ier his legs became, as if the soles of his feet were glued to the ground.
The old woman rec­og­nized the young Nasered­din; the young Nasered­din saw the old woman look­ing at him with fear, prob­a­bly afraid that he would throw stones at her or laugh at her with bad words like yes­ter­day, so he hid his head in his clothes.

“Here, take it, old woman,” he stam­mered, and poured the mon­ey from the bag into the old wom­an’s arms. The cop­per coins touched the cat’s body, and the cat sud­den­ly purred at him.

This made his courage dis­ap­pear, and he ran away in fear, and only recov­ered when he ran to the iron mar­ket on the oth­er side of the trad­ing inn.
Although he had brave­ly cleared him­self of his sins, he spent the entire day alone, lost in thought. He thought of two kinds of peo­ple: the old woman, and the hard-heart­ed peo­ple who had avoid­ed help­ing her. He felt pity for the first and hatred for the sec­ond. If he remained mere­ly heart­bro­ken and resent­ful, he would have no bright future. He need­ed to get down to busi­ness, but how should he do it?

Upon think­ing this, he first thought of har­ness­ing the pow­er of his intel­lect. He ini­tial­ly sep­a­rat­ed his feel­ings from his thoughts, as feel­ings had not yet dri­ven his thoughts. Lat­er, he care­ful­ly sort­ed out his thoughts, rough­ly divid­ing them into major and minor mat­ters accord­ing to the order in which they occurred, and plac­ing them in their prop­er places. He learned this method of think­ing from the chess play­ers he often saw in tea­hous­es, and he often prac­ticed on his own small chess­board. Dur­ing his prac­tice, he would some­times focus on the oppo­nen­t’s moves to cap­ture his king or to cause him to lose his troops and gen­er­als. In such sit­u­a­tions, he often need­ed to counter their own tac­tics. This was the deci­sion young Nasered­din made: if the res­i­dents of Bukhara were unwill­ing to give alms, then they should be forced to do good!

He clear­ly under­stood what he had to do first and what his future strat­e­gy would be: to find a game that he could play bet­ter than the Bukha­rans. He thought that instead of deal­ing with thou­sands of hard-heart­ed Bukha­rans, it would be bet­ter to unite them into one and turn them into a Bukha­ran giant.

Things became simpler—even though the Bukhara giant was enor­mous, things were much eas­i­er to han­dle. He began to study the nature of this hard-heart­ed Bukhara giant. His goal was to find a shield to pre­vent jus­tice and mer­cy from enter­ing the minds and hearts of the Bukhara peo­ple men­tioned above.

The inner nature of the Bukhara giant was­n’t com­plex, nor was it unfathomable—the young man pon­dered it for two or three hours before he grasped the essence. He found the rot­ten roots of stingi­ness, greed, and arro­gance that had fes­tered there. By then, the Bukhara giant was per­fect­ly clear to him, his revolt­ing fea­tures exposed before the young Nasered­din. The giant was as tall as a pago­da, but incred­i­bly obese. His long dhoti, wrapped around his waist, bare­ly reached one end. His face was fat and red, his eyes puffy and small. His dull, dull gaze looked at the world indif­fer­ent­ly, reveal­ing an arro­gant, emp­ty smile in his sleep. When he opened his mouth, a bloat­ed, clum­sy tongue would pro­trude from his lips. He was con­stant­ly snif­fling, breath­ing heav­i­ly and groan­ing from the fat that filled his nose. In his hand was a piece of naan as big as a wheel and smeared with hon­ey, tak­ing big bites of it. Because the naan was very sweet, he shout­ed and hummed with pride. At the same time, he seemed to be afraid that some­one would take half of it or share a bite with him, so he held the naan in his arms.

Young Naserdin was furi­ous at the Bukhar­i­ans’ hard-heart­ed­ness toward the old woman, which made the Bukhar­i­an giant seem so abom­inable in his eyes. How­ev­er, the view that anger is a bad coun­selor to jus­tice is, of course, rare. For the major­i­ty of gen­uine Bukhar­i­ans are kind and com­pas­sion­ate. They weren’t unwill­ing to help the old woman out of self­ish­ness, but rather they failed to see past her ugly exte­ri­or and grasp the depth of her suf­fer­ing. If they had known, they would­n’t have wait­ed for oth­ers to tell them to, but would have tak­en the ini­tia­tive to help her. They sim­ply did­n’t think deeply enough. But for young Naserdin, there was no time for deliberation—he was ready to duel with the Bukhar­i­an giant. In oth­er words, he had made every pos­si­ble prepa­ra­tion and was filled with courage.

The next morn­ing, young Nas­er al-Din appeared at the inn again. After care­ful con­sid­er­a­tion, he arrived ear­ly. The old woman had­n’t arrived yet; he would have to wait for over half an hour. He searched for her, exhaust­ing him­self by search­ing around the inn and the sur­round­ing streets. The morn­ing sun was­n’t quite as blaz­ing; the sky was clear, and even in the shade, the damp ground still held the lin­ger­ing mois­ture of the night. Steam was just begin­ning to rise, a breath of air. But the carved dome of the tem­ple tow­er was blind­ing in the sun­light. Above him, the azure sky, herald­ing anoth­er scorch­ing day, seemed to drift inward, trem­bling in the heat. The dull clam­or of the sur­round­ing streets grew loud­er, fill­ing every cor­ner of the city. This sound adorned the mag­nif­i­cent palaces of Allah, drown­ing out the angels’ songs and drift­ing away into the depths of the heav­ens with the dawn dust storm. It was the cry of the Bukhara giant for naan.

Soon the old woman arrived, and the black cat fol­lowed her. The boy regret­ted not bring­ing a piece of cooked goat’s liv­er with him. Now this dis­gust­ing, shed cat had become his close ally in his fight against the Bukhara giant.

The young man Nasserdin did not delay and walked bold­ly towards the old woman and greet­ed her:
“May God grant you good health, old woman! Did you have a peace­ful night?”
“May God grant you hap­pi­ness too!” the old woman replied, squint­ing her tear­ful eyes. “Last night was quite peace­ful, but I don’t think this day will be peace­ful.”

Although the young Nasserdin under­stood what she meant, he pre­tend­ed not to hear.
He bowed a sec­ond time and asked:
“How was your beloved cat last night?”
“The cat caught the mouse, so it did­n’t get a good night’s sleep.” She answered, star­ing at the boy as if she could see through him.
Her gaze embar­rassed the young Nass­er al-Din, who kept shift­ing his weight from one foot to the oth­er. His courage sud­den­ly van­ished, and he for­got all the words he had pre­pared.

A moment of silence fell. Nass­er al-Din Afan­ti felt not only his face but his entire body burn­ing hot, and he began to breathe rapid­ly. Final­ly, he man­aged to whis­per:
“I am that child. Yes­ter­day and the day before yes­ter­day…”
The old woman stared at him intent­ly with­out say­ing any­thing. Nasserdin gath­ered all his strength and said in a voice that he could not even hear:
“I made you angry, do you remem­ber?”
If the old woman did­n’t say any­thing this time, he would turn around and run away like he did yes­ter­day.
But the old woman answered:
“Do you think I remem­ber it? How could I not remem­ber it? You kept stick­ing your tongue out at me. I was sur­prised to see how long it was.”
If the old woman had not said these words with a face as bright as the sun and a smile on her face, he would have been ashamed of him­self.
“Come clos­er,” the old woman said. “You are a good, kind-heart­ed child, but I see you are also a rather naughty one. Now, don’t hide any­thing, tell me the truth. Why are you here? What do you need? Let me tell you this: if you brought two sil­ver dol­lars with you as you did yes­ter­day, you’d bet­ter take the mon­ey and leave as soon as pos­si­ble. Help­ing the poor is cer­tain­ly a noble act, but it’s not good when some chil­dren steal mon­ey from their par­ents’ pock­ets to do so. Oth­er­wise, where do you get two sil­ver dol­lars every day?”

The young Nassered­din blushed with embar­rass­ment, but he thought that since the old woman was a Gyp­sy, she was talk­ing to him as if he were a child from her own tribe.
“That’s not the case at all!” said young Nas­er al-Din. “I did­n’t bring two sil­ver dol­lars today. I nev­er pick my father’s pock­ets. He often leaves me alone in the shop sell­ing clay pots, and I always give all the mon­ey I earn to him.”

“That’s good!” the old woman said affir­ma­tive­ly.
“He would give me half of a denar­ius, or even half a denar­ius, at fes­ti­vals.”
“You may take this,” said the old woman. “It is not wrong. I am glad I have wronged you. Don’t be angry with me.”
Lat­er, their con­ver­sa­tion con­tin­ued in this way, and they both talked very hap­pi­ly. The young man Nasserdin sat beside the old woman, stroking the cat, lis­ten­ing to its meows, and prais­ing it non-stop.

“Does your cat like goat’s liv­er and milk?”
“I don’t know, because I’ve nev­er fed it goat’s liv­er or milk.” The old woman laughed. “I haven’t seen those things in years.”
This sad answer paved the way for the young Nassered­din to move on to the main top­ic. He excit­ed­ly but timid­ly told the old woman his thoughts on “oppos­ing” the Bukhara giant.

The old woman lis­tened with only mild inter­est at first, but then she believed him and final­ly burst into tears.
“God has sent you to me because you have brought a lit­tle com­fort to a home­less old woman like me! You are a schem­ing child; if you had been born into our tribe, you would have become a leader. Your heart is pur­er than that of any right­eous man, and may God bless you with wis­dom and wis­dom.”

Accord­ing to young Nasserdin’s idea, it would cost about fif­teen sil­ver dol­lars or a lit­tle more. The old woman trust­ed him so much that she took the mon­ey out of her tat­tered old clothes and hand­ed it to him with­out hes­i­ta­tion.

“This is my last bit of mon­ey.” said the old woman, her hands shak­ing.
“Don’t wor­ry, old woman, the mon­ey will come back to you along with the prof­its,” said the young Nass­er al-Din.
(To be con­tin­ued)